Well, I am waiting for my teacher to call back. And that means, yes, I am home schooled. It is SO much easier than being in public school. I have a more flexible schedule. Well, it is ALMOST valentines day, and I am 'leaving' on that day to go somewhere special.......I am not telling you yet!
(Evil laugh. Chokes.)
It is NOT Disney though. So check that off your list.
Alex, who would be making a list about a super awesome place you are going to in 2 seconds?
Me of course!
So, we do not need to get anything for our trip but, maybe some Gas? For the truck? Maybe. I have 0 clue.
So, do you guys have a valentine? I know I don't. But, being alone is a statement to say that I do not need a shoulder to lean on. Somebody to rely on. Except my family.
Well, I think my kitty, Hatch, should be my valentine. As soon as I find a good pic of him, I will post it.
I am just writing right now. I will do the GIF and the fact later.
So, you guys now know it 2014, right? (No duh.) New year, new you? Well, I don't know about that for me. Sure, I make resolutions EVERY year, but I never seem to accomplish them. Sad, right? Maybe. So, I only had ONE resolution this year. I need to stop being shy. Speak up and out to the world. Greet people with open arms. I am SUPER shy, so that is why I am so happy to be home schooled. But. That does not mean I can avoid people at all times. I NEED to be way more social. I mean, this blog kinda helps me speak in one way. To people who might just wanna know what is going on in someone's life. Like mine.
Now that I think about it, I need to start respecting my body. We all have different shapes. I'm already skinny as it is, but I hate my round shoulders. They make wearing shirts and stuff look like deer barf. Not literally. It really hurts to look into the mirror and see something you HATE. It makes me feel really mad. Tears prick into my eyes when I TRY to wear something cool.
I have been doing that less lately, thank goodness. I am only as young as the minute is.
Well, I know that probably was a little personal but, it does not matter.
I also need to stop yelling when I am angry. When one of my brothers say something totally NOT true, it makes me angry. Because they think I am not telling the truth when I am! I try to tell them, but they push me away. Then I slam down my fists on something and yell. And now that I think more about it, It DOES NOT MAKE THINGS BETTER. Nope. Not at all.
That is why I try to write in my blog that my life is perfect. When in reality, it is not. I need to embrace the fact that this is my life. I need to start pushing through the hard times and make them better. I need to throw away being miserable.
I cannot help being mad and weird and stupid. I have different feelings, and different points of views on everything. I have to focus on what a good thing is. Not the bad things.
A human heart is like the ocean. Deep and mysterious, and sometimes scary. Horrifying. I want more happiness in my life. And it kinda has something to do with where my family and I live. It is a bad place, and we are hopefully gonna move away. Soon.
And when that happens, I will be way more happy. WAY more.
Take this writing as advice from me to you. Embrace it. Dream it. Live it. Cherish it.
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